August 06, 2004
It's not always perfect chez Helen. We do have arguments, and although I am getting more comfortable with the fact that we have arguments and they're normal, they happen, they don't mean the end of the Gap culture as we know it, it doesn't mean I always like some of the things that are said during the arguments, which in my typical mental way I remember and stab myself with whenever the going gets rough. We had a bust-up last night in fact, and although I think things are relatively ok now and we're mostly friends, we're still a bit frosty.
You know-we open our mouths and a light comes on.
I think sometimes my spider senses are off.
I had this idea in my head to surprise Mr. Y with last week, a small little brainstorm that made me laugh and I hoped would make him laugh. I don't know how I thought of it, but a few mouse clicks later I had procured the item I needed. When it arrived in the post, I ran upstairs, put it on, and came down to Mr. Y on the couch.
It was a pink wig.
And, sliding onto Mr. Y's lap, his face adorned with a big grin, it was then that I knew my idea was indeed appreciated. I sat on his lap and smiled, pink strands flying about, startling me periodically in my peripheral vision as I saw them light their fluorescent way. It made me feel younger, it made me feel naughty, and above all, it made me laugh.
"I am Lola." I said, sliding my arms around his neck. "Tell me about your day."
And so, with my skirt rucked up around my upper thighs and my pink hair in our faces, he talked about his day at work while I listened happily, sitting on the couch with the sun coming in the windows. Then I went outside and watered the plants. And I did the whole thing with a big grin.
Lola is, to me, a little happy sex kitten. She's easy going, she's bouncy, she's sexy yet not a slapper. When I think of what pink-haired Lola is like, I think about a happy chick that would cook her man fondue and serve it to him wearing a skimpy skirt. She'll giggle with laughter as they tell each other jokes. She stands up for her opinions and won't back down. She has enough moxy to float Hollywood. She's skinny and, to be honest, not gorgeous, just interesting looking.
You know the kind of chick-she's the one in the grocery shop in the combat pants and skimpy T-shirt that leans on the handle of the cart and flies down the shop aisle. She's the bouncy one that goes to a nightclub at night, armed only with a whistle, a tube of lipstick, and an attitude. She's up for anything in the bedroom, provided it feels good for all involved. She has no problem heading to the nearest greasy spoon to order coffee and scrambled eggs at 2 am, chatting to a waitress named "Sue" with yellow fingernails and enough Rave in the hair to plug holes in cement. Men turn their heads when they see her, simply because she walks with a casual confidence that she doesn't even recognize, and she sings a buoyant song in her head, unaware she is getting stared at. She's the one that heads first for the animal with a limp, scooping them up and declaring herself to be their mother.
She's also great at giving head, which is a perk.
And before you stress, let me tell you-this is not some alternate personality that I have. I'm not schizophrenic. I don't have enough room in me for Helen, let alone subletting another person into my head. This isn't some weird schism or psychotic break, just a piece of pink-floss that is able to unlock some of the things that are inside of me, my emporer's new clothes, my way of doing the kinds of things I want to do. A way of envisioning a part of an ideal woman, the lighter, joyful type of woman that I have never been (I've always thought of myself as more of a raving moor-wanderer's chick, perhaps).
Lola makes me laugh. The idea of her makes me laugh, and seeing myself in the pink wig makes me grin. And the truth is, after putting the wig on, picking off dead petunias from the windowbox and making my man laugh, after thinking about what Lola means....well, I don't need a pink wig to do all of those things. I am not in danger of creating another personality simply because all of the things she is to me...I already am.
OK, I need to work on standing up for myself more, but in general, all of her traits are already in me, they just needed the right person to unlock them. So after donning the wig and thinking about how I felt about Lola, I decided...I like her. And the weird thing is...she's a part of me.
Does that mean I like me? Yeah...let's not get carried away. I am not the picture of mental health and self-confidence. This is not my id kicking my ego's ass or anything.
It's getting way too Freudian in here.
I like the wig. I'm keeping it, and Lola will get an airing periodically. When I walk to the village shop for some milk. In my garden, sipping some wine. When I greet Mr. Y at the front door, wearing nothing and slipping a finger into his waistband, drawing him upstairs for a round of Extreme Shagging.
But I can also do those things when I am not Lola.
But a pink wig...come on. Now that's funny.
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