June 24, 2005
I have also been incredibly forgetful. I promise to send someone an email about something then completely forget about it, waking up at 2 am thinking Fuck me, I forgot to send that email! which I then race up to send first thing in the morning. I will start writing things down. I will start getting my head on straight again. I will start to try to care.
It hasn't been easy. Yesterday I took 7 hours out of my day to ride a train to Ipswich for a one hour meeting, and enjoyed a 45 minute stop on the tracks on the way back in a train with no AC and no opening windows. And it's about 90 degrees Farenheit here right now, so it was really like sitting inside a great big shiny bullet while enjoying rivers of sweat down my back and neck.
Life has me wondering. I wonder when Angus and I can go away next. I wonder if Angus will buy me that ring I like (please, Angus? Pretty please?) I wonder if we will get a house and I wonder when it will happen. I wonder if Best Friend and K will calm down and love each other's company as much as I think they can, and push aside the ragged demons of their pasts. I wonder what Angus and I will do this summer (besides not attend Live8 as we didn't get tickets. Curse you and your altruistic kindness Bob Geldof! Curse you! And since when did ebay become the moral majority instead of a business? Am I missing something?)
I just don't give a fuck right now. My head hurts and I just want to sleep all the time. The sun is out and I want to sit in it and not miss a second of the sunshine. I want to IM with friends and I want to read blogs and I want to let it all go.
In the meantime, I offer a visual piece of my life. You know. Cause the literary side isn't so hot just now.
This is the view from my desk. Observe the many orchids (which Angus is sick of, so likely no more of those for a while). Ignore the overflowing in-tray.
This is an antique rack that hangs on our kitchen wall. The assortment of things on it all have a meaning for us, something small or interesting that we have picked up. The top shelf has an antique light bulb that Angus nicked from his old school before parts of it were demolished. The pitcher next to it is an enamel, turn-of-the-century working family's pitcher that I bought because I love holding things that supplied someone else's lives (brace yourself Elizabeth and Jen! I'm in love with these!) There is a candle and then an antique pint jar for milk, the kind that deliverymen used to use, then a watering can.
The second shelf is our boring eating ware. Plain white. Vanilla. We're boring.
The third shelf has many treasures-a painted tile from Venice. Three ducks from a Scottish company called Dragon Pottery that I have fallen deeply in love with. An empty glass yogurt jar from France, 10 antique Elnglish copper pennies called tuppence, and then the glass jar from the 1920's that I found under the stairs in Angus' and my first house together, then a Swedish crystal bowl I bought when Angus and I were in Sweden to get my lovely girls last November.
This is a close-up of the ducks. I fucking love those things, something about them speaks to that inner child in me, and since my inner child and I have never been close I just have to try to speak to my inner child any chance I get. Making up for lost time and all.
In my kitchen window sits another antique enamel pitcher which I keep filled with fresh flowers-this time sunflowers. And next to it is another Scottish Dragon Pottery special, this time a sheep. If you look out the back window you can see the bamboo poles which I am growing sweet peas up. I feel very proud of those sweet peas.
And on those nice days when I get to work from home wearing pajamas and drinking copious amounts of coffee, I am often graced with the presence of my assistant Maggie. She's rubbish at bringing me coffee but if a fly gets in the way, she's great at helping me re-organize my desk.
I am so thankful every damn day for my wonderful cats.
And finally, since I have likely bored you with my workplace depression and my penchance for pottery barnyard animals and working man antiques, I give you the action shot.
Ladies and gentlemen-The Hand Herpes.
Go on. Tell me that rash turned you on. Makes you want to run right out for a hand job, doesn't it?
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