I know it seems that I have gone from "depression" to "Jim Carrey-hyper" in 60 seconds.
You probably also groan when you open my site and find another post about miscarriage, depression, or-worse-another fucking recipe cooked up in the kitchen Chez Helen. You may think: Christ, babe-when are you going to get over it? Or: Dude. Enough with the psychiatric-level posts, m'kay?
Or maybe you don't.
Anyway, I too am ready to move on, and I'm getting there, I really am, and if all these posts about cooking or DIY or my God, she's talking about her pets again are getting to you, then bear with me. I am cheering up, even if there's a manic quality to my cheering up: I love Christmas! Everything is great! HA HA HA! Let's go make some fudge! I'll put on a Christmas DVD! I love Christmas! Maybe I'm clinging too hard to my love of Elf (which I want to watch constantly. I'm sure it'll pass after Christmas. Hopefully.)
I guess what I'm trying to say here is this-It probably hasn't been easy to watch the complete car accident that has been my life recently. I know I have not been the most interesting, especially during times when I just had nothing to post. I know I'm not rocking the originality lately, either.
But I'm getting there.
And thanks for being there, with me.
I really mean that.
-H.
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It's your blog and you can cry, scream, laugh, cook, watch Elf if you wan't to. We are just lucky that you let us come along for the ride. VERY glad to read that you are feeling happier. ~hugs~
Posted by: Mia at November 21, 2006 07:19 AM (wsoh+)
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whether it's doldrums or mania, you're taking a hell of a ride girl, and I'm happy you'll take me along a few paragraphs at a time
Life is a car wreck followed by an Elf marathon. For everyone. There's no need to apologize.
Posted by: caltechgirl at November 21, 2006 07:46 AM (r0kgl)
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I really can't do much but echo caltechgirl here. Because life IS a car wreck followed by an Elf marathon. You do happen to write beautifully about all of it, is the thing.
Posted by: ilyka at November 21, 2006 07:59 AM (Sz1jV)
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Ditto to what Mia said. And after Christmas you can get
Talladega Nights: The Ballad Of Ricky Bobbyto help with the
Elf withdrawal.
Posted by: ~Easy at November 21, 2006 12:29 PM (FKBK3)
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Hey, I'm quite familiar with the "life-as-a-car-wreck" oeuvre, as that's pretty much been me since moving to Atlanta.
BTW, your thing is in the mail.
Posted by: amber at November 21, 2006 03:15 PM (5PLeA)
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Your name is Helen!
You're our friend!
Even though you didn't know we were born!
Annnd...We love you! We love you! We love you!
Posted by: Lindsay at November 21, 2006 03:20 PM (8X2F0)
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Why are you apologizing!?! It's your blog - you get to write whatever you darn well please. Keep it up - if it's therapeutic and helping - then I'll read a fudge recipe everyday.
Posted by: Suz at November 21, 2006 03:35 PM (gIq83)
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Helen, you could instruct us on the proper way to fold a dishtowel, and there would be something fascinating about the discussion.
I know I've been somewhat quiet here lately, but I hope you know I've been right there with you, all the same, every step of the way.
As you celebrate the American tradition this week, may you and yours party on with gratitude and happiness. Happy Thanksgiving, love.
Posted by: Jennifer at November 21, 2006 04:05 PM (RlFqM)
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In a tragic twist, I learned that we do not, in fact, own the movie Elf. Something must be done about this, stat.
Also, I'd much rather read your blog than mine!
Posted by: geeky at November 21, 2006 04:22 PM (ziVl9)
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Just because I am an internet-friend doesnt mean I am a fairweather one.
And friends stick by you through all the good and bad, else they wouldnt be friends.
Have I mentioned Im master of the obvious?
You are beautiful.
Posted by: That Girl at November 21, 2006 04:48 PM (oT4a3)
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Man, if posts about pets are wrong, then I don't want to be right!
Seriously though, do what you have to do, post what you have to (want to) post and don't mind us. I'm with ya either way!
Posted by: Erin at November 21, 2006 05:23 PM (zw8QA)
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You know, I have never seen ELF. You have blogged so much about it lately that I ordered it from Amazon.com. It came yesterday when I got home from work. I'll watch it tonight. I can't wait since you rave so much about it - its gotta be hysterical. I Love Christmas too!
I agree with the others - It doesn't matter what you write about, JUST WRITE-Cause we like it! (And Thanks!) I think it is safe to say that we are all rooting for you.
Posted by: kimmykins13 at November 21, 2006 05:30 PM (HUKlZ)
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Hey - I lover reading your blog. You post what you want, do what you want...but you don't need me to tell you that! Just know you make one SoCal girl very happy to share in your world.
Posted by: Miss K at November 21, 2006 06:24 PM (EM7ls)
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That's what friends do. They enjoy the good times together and trudge (for lack of a better word) through the hard times together. I know we have our differences in opinion sometimes, but I'm glad to trudge (for lack of a better word) with you.
Posted by: Solomon at November 21, 2006 08:24 PM (k1sTy)
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Helen - Keep up the good work. That's what I have to say. Your honesty is great.
I know that if I knew you in the real world, not just cyber world, I would like you a lot. And we would enjoy Elf and gingerbread lattes together.
Posted by: SaraJane at November 21, 2006 09:27 PM (If0H6)
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Don´t want to spoil the good spirit here, but… isn´t this the time to really think about where you´re going? I know you know what I mean, the rollercoaster ride, the high getting to high, and the down that follows. Please don´t think badly of me, I trully am concerned. It´s just that I already saw this movie.
Posted by: miguel at November 21, 2006 10:25 PM (DW5Bx)
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I think mostly we're harder on ourselves than others are on us, b/c you haven't been a train wreck at all, IMO. Yeah, of course you've been sad. To be sad given the tragic loss though, is so very, very normal. Don't sweat not being what you think others want you to be. Do your own thing in your own time. :-)
Posted by: Polichick at November 21, 2006 11:11 PM (ibT+U)
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It's Your Blog.
We are guests, and we feel privileged to be here. If we don't, we can show ourselves out.
But you can add this to your list of accomplishments— whether depression or subway rides, walks with the dog or Elf, home improvement or feeling rootless, you write compellingly. I know little about you and you know next to nothing about me and yet to me at least, it's like keeping tabs on a friend. A friend who has had a bit of a rough ride lately.
So worry not and hold fast. It's just awesome that the upswing is happening as the holidays approach. Because of my job (high school photography), it feels as though I've missed autumn entirely, and I'd hate to forget the holidays because I was too busy. Reading your site reminds me a little of what it's like to have a family keen on the holiday spirit. (I try, but Evil Rob? He grew up in a house of chronic invalidism, so Christmas might well be spent in the hospital. Not a recipe for traditions.)
Which reminds me. St. Nicholas Day is the 6th of December. Good little girls and boys leave their shoes out the night of the 5th and get some candy and a toy. (My parents— good— get Legos. For themselves.) Gingerbread is traditional. Perhaps you should tell St. Nicholas (the Bishop of Myra, not The Jolly Old Elf) that gingerbread lattes might fill the requirement nicely.
Posted by: B. Durbin at November 22, 2006 03:33 AM (tie24)
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