March 08, 2007
I remember doing this in the years before the web, having a piece of paper and the Yellow Pages, making endless notes and trying to maneuver the best deal. Now I'm doing it via the web, and it doesn't help when we change our minds on destinations every five minutes. Thailand! No, Cape Town! Oooh, there's a good price on flights to Sydney! No wait-how about Costa Rica?
My brain hurts.
Current favorites are a combo Key West/Aruba break, a Key West/Bahamas break (the kids would love this place, where we stayed a few years ago), and Angus just rang and asked if we could put Cape Town back on the possibility list, so I'll look there as well.
I need a nap. Followed by a massage. And then maybe a 3 hour CSI marathon will do it.
But going away is exciting and fun, and we're suddenly finding ourselves slightly energized.
I could use the energy. Something about the endless rain we've been having has sucked me dry-the sun is peeking out this morning and every feline (and the lone canine) in the house is laying in every possible patch of sunlit floor. I'd join them, too, only I'm sure I'd fall asleep only to find the sun has moved without me. It's funny-I don't get depressed in Fall or Winter, when you'd expect this seasonal disorder stuff to hit. I get depressed in Spring, when the rain and the gale force winds just don't stop.
The manager for the job I interview for called me last week. Apparently, even though I'm not coercive encouraging enough, they want me for the job. The manager called to tell me that the job was mine, if I want it.
I don't know if I want it.
It's a little bit of a step down from where I am now, although the manager promises to promote me as soon as possible (where have I heard that before, I wonder?) The company used to always give you a 10% pay rise when moving jobs as a standard practice, but those days are over-no pay rises. So I'll be moving down, I won't get any money (in fact, my benefits get slashed), and I'll have to work with The Little Man again (truthfully, I'll be the customer in that scenario, but it just doesn't matter-I simply never want to see him again, in any situation).
I feel bad, but I think I'm going to turn the job down.
My own organization is unstable right now, and a re-organization is coming up. I think and hope it may help my situation, but I just don't know. Right now I'm on two projects I don't believe in that much, but you know? They're not that stressful. I'm working 8 to 5 right now, and when I close the lid of the laptop, I don't think about work for the rest of the day. I am not setting the world on fire...but my ulcer is better, my hair is better, and the twitch under my eye has disappeared.
Maybe that's enough.
Maybe it's enough to have two manageable, 40 hour-a-week projects. I've also talked to some of my former team about an idea I had, we're going to try to turn it into something, and I feel excited about that. It may not get anywhere, but at least I can give something a try without giving up my day job.
So I've got a lot to think about. I'm not 100% sure I'll turn the job down, but I have yet to receive an official HR offer yet, and I won't make any moves without something on paper. It's true the new manager is a great guy, and someone I could work with in less fear than my current manager, but I can't help but factor in that "better the devil you know" factor.
So today I'll work from 8 to 5. I'll search for sun-kissed holidays to take two frozen Swedish children and two sun-sick England dwellers to. And I'll feel really, really good that someone wanted me for a job, even if I turned them down.
My ego, it needed that little boost.
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